Returning home from the Amazon
I’ve been back from the Amazon for a couple of weeks now, slowly integrating myself back into life.
Earlier this year I traveled to Peru for a few weeks on my birthday to spend time in the jungle learning with the Shipibo for the second time, sitting in dieta with a master plant called Bobinsana.
The jungle was a true start-stop. A full break. A lot of non-doing. Time spent cleaning and clearing from the inside out.
What I was really practicing was letting go of the habit of trying to figure things out (a big one for me). Releasing the need to do, to know, and to strive in order to feel safe.
For two weeks I consumed almost no information. No books, no news, no scrolling. Just long stretches of quiet in nature, contemplation of the Gene Key of my Life’s Work (54), conversations with a few friends, and learning new songs.
This was my second time doing a Dieta with the Shipibo, learning with a master plant. What I understand now is that you don’t go expecting answers. Two weeks is really just enough to begin a relationship with the plant.
The real shifts unfold in the integration that follows. I was taught that it can take up to two years to fully integrate a plant.
For the first few days, I honestly had very little idea what I was doing down there. After sitting in uncertainty for a while, I surrendered to not knowing. And that was surprisingly freeing.
Since returning home, I’ve realized I’ve been in what I would call a restart moment.
A kind of liminal space.
One of surrender and stillness. I have had no desire to force anything that isn’t being asked of me. I’m practicing patience and listening closely.
Old ways of striving no longer feel aligned, even if a small survival voice still tries to convince me otherwise.
So I’m slowing down. Listening somatically. Waiting to respond instead of acting from fear. Taking small, grounded steps that feel true. Choosing integrity over urgency.
In a time that feels increasingly chaotic, this kind of slowing down feels like medicine.
Interestingly, this slowdown has also become a foundational exploration of my life and business. When I strip away urgency and old identities, I’m left with simpler, more honest questions about what I truly offer and who I’m here to serve.
Over the last seven years, my identity has been transforming year after year, and along with it, what I do out in the world. Pluto and Uranus have been moving through key parts of my chart during that time, and I’ve been living through a steady dismantling and reinvention.
As I’ve been clarifying my work, I keep landing on this:
I work with people who feel called to live differently than they were taught, even if the next chapter isn’t fully clear yet.
Many are the first in their families to question old patterns. They’re seeking a grounded, embodied way to move forward with more self-trust and alignment with their own truth.
Much of my work is about gently untangling what lives beneath the surface in our families, our emotional inheritance, and the strategies we learned to survive so we can break free from the chains of the past.
Threshold moments are inevitable. Jobs end. Relationships shift. Identities dissolve.
Astrology often points to the timing of these cycles, which has supported me greatly on a personal level in recognizing the phases I’m moving through. But the deeper work is learning how to stay present inside them, with all that they offer, and remain open to the growth being asked of us.
As I’ve allowed myself to stay in this restart moment, something else has begun to happen.
New energy is starting to build.
Ideas and possibilities are beginning to reveal themselves that I couldn’t have planned or predicted. That part feels quietly exciting.
Sometimes life pauses before it reorganizes.
And sometimes the most honest thing we can do is pause, listen, and allow the next chapter to reveal itself in its own time.
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Some photos from my trip and resetting in my “tambo” in the jungle.
